I’m Ready to Quit! – Online Course

It’s my great privilege to introduce our new online course: “I’m Ready to Quit!”

The content of this course is current. As new scientific studies on meth treatment come along — and they do all the time — the course material is updated accordingly. 

I believe there is no “one size fits all” cookie-cutter way to do life or recovery. I’m for what works. 

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From Meth Addict to Olympic Silver Medalist — in Less Than Two Years

2016 Olympic Silver medalist Luvo Manyonga.  Takes the Gold at the 2017 IAAF World Championships. Another Gold at Australia’s Commonwealth Games in 2018. And, now, all eyes are on the 2020 Olympics.

Here’s the best feature story I’ve found on Luvo. Next time someone says you can’t come back from meth, tell ’em about Luvo…

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Mourning the Loss of Crystal Meth

Mark Twain once said, “Giving up smoking is the easiest thing in the world. I know because I’ve done it thousands of times.” Don’t we know it, too?

If you’ve been struggling with crystal meth, you’ve probably come to realize that quitting—even though difficult—isn’t nearly as difficult as staying quit.

After withdrawal ends, the question for us is no longer “How do I quit?” The critically important question becomes: “How do I stay quit?” And there are many different valid ways to answer that question.

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These 5 Things Keep Me Clean

In the 4-plus years of this blog, I’ve published only 3 guest posts, including this one. I don’t edit… raw… real… and some great advice.

By Peter Lang

I’ve been addicted to nearly every substance imaginable including heroin, cocaine, and every prescription medication you can think of. I’ve been homeless—living on the street of Philadelphia and the beaches of Maui for the better part of a decade. I’ve been in a wheelchair after drinking both my hips necrotic. And none of that was as destructive to me as crystal meth.

I’ve used meth at various times in my life, but it never got as bad as it did the last time. Four years ago, I was put on methadone. I had legitimate pain issues that were a result of having double hip replacements and a femur replacement following a car accident, but I also had a history of heroin use and prescription painkiller abuse so they put me on methadone. Continue reading These 5 Things Keep Me Clean

What About My Depression? ADHD? Anxiety?

According to a 2015 National Survey on Drug Use and Health by the Center for Behavioral Health Statistics and Quality, over 40 percent of people with a substance use disorder also have a mental health condition, yet fewer than half (48.0 percent) receive treatment for either disorder.

This “over 40 percent” number is averaged for all substances, alcohol to heroin. In my experience, the percentage of meth users who use to self-medicate mental health issues is closer to 75. According to epidemiological data, 40 percent of adults using amphetamines have a lifetime history of depression. And that’s just depression. What about anxiety disorder, attention deficit hypersensitivity disorder, impulse control disorder, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, etc. But it’s important to note my evidence for the “75% of meth users are in some way self-medicating” claim is purely anecdotal, not scientific. Still, it’s a lot of us.

The user who self-medicates will have a rougher time in quitting.

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That Last Run

Since this will be the last post of the year, I thought it fitting to talk about that “last run.” It’s when we say, “This is it. My last run. I’m quitting right after this eight ball is gone.” Been there before?

(More than once, right?)

Though this post is primarily directed to the person who has just quit or is trying to quit, I think those of you well into your journey of quitting might find this interesting, if not applicable to today. And, of course, many of us had no idea that our last run would be the last. We overdosed, got incarcerated, or some other life altering event changed us so that we wanted to try to get clean. But for others like myself…

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Done with Meth-Fueled Sex?


If you combined sex and crystal, the idea of having sex might seem overwhelming at first. But thousands of recovering meth users have relearned how to have healthy — even hot — sex without crystal meth. It’s just going to take some time and effort.

First, the harsh fact: Life without meth means life without meth-fueled sex. It’s okay, even necessary for many of us (it was for me), to mourn this loss.

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It’s an Inescapable Fact: at Some Point . . .


A friend a mine doesn’t understand why he can’t stop using. He’s in his mid-fifties, lives in West Hollywood and like many of us gay men — like many straight men and women, for that matter — we mixed our meth with some serious sexploits. The sex/meth connection makes giving up meth harder for anyone, regardless of sexual orientation.

He struggles. And, as I’ve written elsewhere, I believe with most gay men and all other “sex tweakers,” that until you are completely okay — and I mean truly, really, okay — with the fact that you never get to have meth sex again, you will continue to relapse — over sex, of course. Once you’re truly okay with letting go of meth sex, letting it go completely, then your odds for successfully quitting are much higher.

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Feeling “done” with crystal meth?

Done with a high that isn’t a high anymore, but is more like daily maintenance? Done with focusing EVERYTHING IN LIFE around your dealer and getting more ice?

Done having to lie again and again to your family and friends about why you missed the wedding, graduation, funeral, birthday or whatever? Done with tensing up every time a police cruiser drives by? Done with having complete strangers you meet online inside your home just so you can host the party and play? Continue reading Done?

Living the Full & Free Life After Crystal Meth & Addiction